Plans Change, God Doesn't (You Will Want to Read This!)
As many of you know I moved back to Kona in August to do Leadership Track with intentions to staff Fire and Fragrance DTS, but the Lord did what he did best and redirected my plans!!
In Genesis, God asks Abraham to sacrifice his only son, Isaac, to test the obedience of Abraham. Because Abraham is so faithful to the Lord, he agrees to the word that the Lord has given him, he says “yes” to the next step, and went the next morning to go through with the sacrifice. Now, as a child when I heard this story, my mind created an image of this dad-- and because I had limited knowledge of the Bible as a young kid, I had just assumed that Abraham was like my dad and Isaac was my age-- because it was the only knowledge I could pull from. As I have studied the Bible in further depth, sat in lectures, sermons, and doing further research, it is said that Isaac was actually around thirty years old at this time, and because Abraham was one-hundred-years-old when his son was born, this puts Abraham at around ONE-HUNDRED-THIRTY YEARS OLD. So to say that Isaac could resist his father in this time would be an understatement, but he instead trusted his father immensely and the word of the Lord.
Abraham was so confident in God’s goodness that he said to his servant “Stay here with the donkey, the boy and I will travel a little farther. We will worship there and then come right back.” (Genesis 22:5 NLT). He knew that the Lord is so kind to keep his promises as he spoke in Genesis 17:4-7 (ESV) “Behold my covenant is with you, and you shall be the father of many nations. I will make you exceedingly fruitful, and I will make you into nations, and kings shall come from you. And I will establish my covenant between me and you and your offspring after you throughout their generations for an everlasting covenant, and to be God to you and your offspring after you.” Abraham went obediently, He knew that the Lord keeps his covenants and promises and that his offspring would continue to be fruitful and follow God.
Now, because Isaac is Abraham’s only son, and does not get married until he is about 40 (Genesis 24) Abraham knows that his son cannot die yet because the promise has not been fulfilled yet. Now please don’t hear me say something that I’m not, I have no doubt in my mind that it was easy for Abraham to take his son and bind him to an altar that he built, but I do believe that he had full trust in the Lord and knew that everything that He asks of Abraham is for a reason. Abraham could’ve easily argued with God when he asked him to offer up his son as a sacrifice, but instead, he proves that he will actually rid of everything to be close to the Lord and to show his faithfulness to God. Abraham knows that God is all he needs.
As Abraham lifts his knife to kill his son, the Lord releases an angel to stop what is happening and declares “Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him, for now, I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.” (Genesis 22:12 ESV) and as Abraham looked up his son was no longer on the altar, but has been replaced by a ram. The angel also tells him that because he has been obedient that “I (quoting God and his promises) will surely bless you, and I will surely multiply your offspring as the stars of heaven and as the sand that is on the seashore. And your offspring shall possess the gate of his enemies, and in your offspring shall all the nations of the earth be blessed, because you have obeyed my voice.” (Genesis 22:17&18 ESV).
The Lord will ask us to do something to see if we will be obedient, and because He loves us so much and has given us free will, it is our decision whether or not we will obey.
He is so kind.
As I left Michigan to come back to YWAM, the word that the Lord gave me was I was to come back to disciple the next generation, specifically young women. When I heard this from God and it was confirmed over and over, I believed that I was supposed to staff Fire and Fragrance. As excited as I was during my Leadership Track, there was a part of me that felt as if it wasn't “right,” but wasn’t sure if that thought was just coming from a place of doubt, so I kept praying and growing.
And then the opportunity presented itself.
I met with my friend Bri, who has lived in Kona full-time for a few years now, and I was telling her how I have missed giving music lessons to kids and if there were any opportunities in The Learning Center (the primary/middle/high school at YWAM) I would love to help out, but unfortunately, because of COVID protocols, the school wasn’t running their extracurriculars this year.
Shortly after being dropped back off to campus, I received a message from Bri that basically said (paraphrased):
I know this is crazy but I want to ask you to pray about something. It would change the whole trajectory of why you came but The Learning Center is looking for teachers and you had mentioned that you would maybe want to teach in the future.
The timing was perfect when she asked and everything fell into place very quickly. As I prayed about it I heard Jesus say to me, “I will honor whichever option you choose.” Which scared the heck out of me. So I sought council and was confirmed that it was in fact my decision and God is teaching me the trust He has for me and asking me to trust Him with my decision.
I believe that although it still applies, the original word that the Lord gave me back in the Himalayas about returning, He gave me the word in such a way to get me back here. He was testing my obedience-- if I didn't come to Leadership Track in August I wouldn't have been in Hawaii for the first day of school, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to meet with Bri when I did, and I wouldn't be
ASSISTANT TEACHING 2nd GRADE!
As we are about four weeks into the school year, it has definitely been a rollercoaster ride, starting as an assistant in the fourth and fifth grade for the first two weeks, getting moved to second grade, and now teaching for a couple of weeks on Zoom. Through all the changes, the one thing that is constant is God and His word: “I will honor whichever you choose.” And friends, let me tell you as much as I have taught my students, they teach me new things every day. They are all so tender and pure-hearted. They hear the voice of the Lord so clearly and are truly the next generation of revivalists.
Along with getting to spend each day with some of the coolest kids ever, The Learning Center team is beyond amazing, so inclusive and hard working. Our leader, Noelle takes everything that is thrown at her and navigates it with so much grace and professionalism. I have learned so much from her and seeing the way that she leans on the Lord in everything she does. Before I was placed in the second-grade class with Lenae, I was able to work with two of the most amazing women I’ve met. Siobhan has been such a great mentor since the day I met her last September during my DTS. She has such a gift for making others feel accepted and really taken care of. I felt like I was a part of her family since the first time I sat down to talk to her. Cristina, the fifth-grade teacher, has such a gift for hearing specifically what the Lord says over people and seeing what is going on with her students, and those around her. She also has so much wisdom from the Lord that just pours out of her when she speaks.
And Lenae-- she’s so great at everything she does. She has such a tender and loving heart for those who surround her, especially her students. Lenae is one of the hardest working individuals I’ve ever met. Lenae loves the Lord so much, you can’t go many moments without her declaring God’s goodness with her words or what she is doing.
I am so blessed to be surrounded by these women (along with many more-- I could go on and on about this team) and get to grow and do life with them.
I am so excited to continue to update you about the upcoming year and how Holy Spirit is moving, but please if you have any questions for me about what I am doing or my process please reach out and I would love to answer them.